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The love died the day you raised your hand on me

14 Mar 2017

Dear.....,

I and you shared our lives. It was December 2015 when I and you tied the knot... It was a beautiful bond that we shared. We loved and kissed each other each day... I left my job to move in a new city with you...

A woman who had never taken pocket money from her father was happy and gloating for taking my daily money from you...I had no ego, no judgement, and no division and only love for you....

 

And I felt the same from your side... The way you used to praise me and make me feel princess. And the way you held my hand tight on a busy road while crossing the road, it was all too beautiful... It was our fairy tale romance that had become true.

 

I remember it was June 2016 when your parents visited us. I was excited since this was the first time I was going to be with them... I was excited and yet a little nervous as I too had stories of in-laws issues all my life... But then I knew I had you and believed you would be the bridge between me and your parents...

 

They came and it was perfect. Your dad loved me like a daughter... I was so happy to be with him... He would read me newspaper, while I was cooking. We had developed a healthy bond...

Somehow I could not share the same bond and affection with your mother but I was still fine. There was nothing bad or awfully wrong there....

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I was surprised when on Sunday you said that I should spend more time with your mom and less time with your dad since your mom felt left out... I was surprised that this even came as a discussion point and I WAS even sadder that if she felt this way, she could have directly spoken to me...

But ok I made peace with the fact that it was easier for her to come and speak to you...But I was now restricted. I stopped talking to your dad as much and it hurt me so much.. But I did and went out of my way to speak to your mom....

She and I made the plan to visit the temple.... I said, I would do that after work hours and I got late... By the time, I came I saw that she had left...

You came back and fired on me... You too get late don’t you but you just took me for granted...  I felt really sad since I had no control on this... Your mom took a decision as an adult and there was no reason for you to be angry....  

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Such small things kept happening and every time something happened, I became the point of attraction for your reprimand and anger... And when I confronted, you would just walk out... It DRAINED ME !

Anyways fast forward, they left... But something had gone a miss. I admit even I felt that I couldn’t be like I used to be with you. Those small instances where you had treated me like so secondary were piling on me...

Life went on and it was your sister’s wedding... My parents came to your mom and dad’s home... While papa ji was so nice and cordial, you have to admit in your heart that your mom was not kind to my parents. She was ignoring them... I don’t know why...

Then my mom, who had got a beautiful necklace for your sister, handed it over to your mom. She accepted it very nicely... But then in the night she called me and said that I could keep it... I was shocked and when I asked why... She said its not Geetanjali’s taste. I said to your mom that nice of her that she didn’t say it to my mom but that I will speak to her and get it replaced... I admit that my voice was a bit agitated but I wasn’t rude...

She complained my behaviour to you and we had a fight... That night you said so harsh things to me and told me

“Mummy has told me many  things about you and I just kept on going with you because I love you”.

I was shocked of what more was there or could be there... In a fit of rage, I said “Your mom hates me, I knew that but never knew she is a LIAR too”. And before  I realised you slapped me...

Pieces of my self esteem, my heart, my soul crashed  with it... My whole world came crashing down.... You apologised but to dead ears...

My father even when I was little never spoke harshly to me... My mother never even pushed me... But you my companion, my equal half, hit me?

I couldn’t believe I was at the receiving end...  I couldn’t understand what I had done to receive this as a token of love...

I called my father who was sleeping in another room and left...

I DID NOT WAIT FOR GEETANJALI’S MARRIAGE BECAUSE I DID NOT HAVE TO.

Mr. Gupta, I married you for love but if you can hit me, there is and never was love... You are more than welcome to live with your family; I can’t be a part of it...

 

I SAY good bye to you and the dreams I had stitched with you...

Swagatha

 

This is a letter by Swagatha. She is one of our therapy clients and has shared this letter on her story... 

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Tags: #Love #Abuse #Inlaws